Ch-ch-ch-Changes

Life is changing quickly around here. I am now 18wks pregnant. I am feeling little kicks here and there which make things feel magical and surreal and so real all at once. Today 2 people on a crowded bus offered me a seat. Which means I am now a woman who is publicly pregnant, a role I never particularly considered but one with which I must now come to terms. Another thing that happened today is that the Bonnaroo music festival lineup came out. I've gone every year for the past 11, this would be my 12th. A dozen summers partying and listening to music and relaxing with great friends. But I will be 8 months pregnant and likely uncomfortable and unlikely to tolerate the heat and the crowds and the walking just to see some shows and not get to be daytime drunk or eat magic cookies and get my mind blown by Elton John's sequins. Every summer of my adult life has been marked with a trip down to TN for this and now suddenly, here I am. I am pregnant. I will be pregnant in June if all goes to plan. I will have a baby, and a child, and a young adult, and an adult. I am a parent, or soon will be. People are watching my body change and my life change with it. My life is changing in the most permanent way it ever has and I cannot wrap my head around it.